28 week Photo, 29 week Update.

So I'm a little behind.  This past Saturday I turned 29 weeks but I take a photo every 4 weeks.   I feel like this pregnancy is flying by. All of a sudden we went from having plenty of time to prepare to "HOLY CRAP, LETS GET STUFF DONE!!! "  And the worst part is that the "To Do" list is filled with items that I can't really help Ben with. Like moving furniture, painting and cleaning the carpets and couches.  And all the things that I can do are on a stand still until the babys room is complete. Theres no sense in washing  clothes, or linens if I have no where to put them.  I hate feeling useless.  I see stuff around the house that needs to be cleaned or get done but can't even touch it yet until all of the furniture is in place in the bedrooms.  And just when I thought I couldn't be anymore anxious about our time constraint, the OB/GYN said it's time to see me every 2 weeks now for my check ups instead of every 4.  Then at 35 weeks I see him ever week!! YIKES.

 Pregnancy is kind of funny.  You can't wait to get pregnant, and then when you are you ask yourself  "Is this really happening? "   It's like being on a train you can't stop and have no control over.  There will literaly be another human living in this house in 10 more weeks.   At least I don't feel stressed over labor/delivery, or if I'm capable of taking care of an infant.   Ben and I did it once before so I know we can do it again.  But I'm sure it will be even more tiring because we have an infant and a toddler now.

 A toddler who has found an endless amount of energy over the past couple of weeks.  She can't sit still.  We used to be able to watch Jeopardy in peace while she looked at books or played on the floor quietly but now she runs laps through out the house, jumps on and off the couches.  She pulls massive amounts of toys out of her toy box, in a matter of minutes because she looses her interest and get bored easily now.   Sitting still and coloring is not an option for Mommy and me play time anymore.  I end up coloring by myself while Ella moves on to the next object to destroy.  So it was just this week when I noticed these changes in Ella that made me nervous over having two kids in the house.  Sorry for my rant. I know it will all be fine and everything will work out. I guess going to the doctor today gave me a slight panic attack and got me thinking.
 
I saw a newly pregnant woman at the office today. Looked like it was her first prenatal visit.  I knew this because she was thin, young, had nice clothes and looked like a deer caught in the headlights ,but still holding her "Sample" in her hand and had no idea where to put it. I kind of smirked. I kind of wished I was back there. At the beginning of my pregnancy again.  Even the first pregnancy. The pure ignorance you have of what it's like to be a parent, and all the newness of expecting your first child.  You loose some of the excitement with the second pregnancy.  And since this might be my last pregnancy Im  at times sad that its coming to an end soon.  If you have lasted this long and read all of this, Thanks.  Im just venting and dont need any advice. I'm just having a moment today. Hopefully it will pass soon. 

On a positive note..... Baby is doing fine.  She kicked the doctor a couple of times while he was checking me out today.  It was a surprise to him how strong she was already.  Heartbeat is strong, and he thinks she is head down already. She better not be too anxious to get out.  I already had a talk with her that she has to wait till Grandma Mac is in town before we can celebrate her birthday.  But if she keeps kicking me like a Bruce Lee marathon  I might have to evict her sooner.